– July 28th-July 31st written by Dora Gyarmati-
Wanderlust is a 4 day long yoga festival in Northern
California by Lake Tahoe. I did not plan
on going. I kept telling myself there is no way I can take time off, no
way. I just opened a new business, I am
trying to refinance my house, I am figuring out my life outside corporate America. There is
just no way, not a good time. I must work hard to make this business successful.
This business is my life dream, I must work, I must work, I must work!
I fantasized about being able to relax someday. Oh when I will travel
to Hawaii in the winter, when the business up and ready. Then out of the blue my
friend presented a free ticket to Wonderlust. The same day I received one of
those monthly letters from Alaskan Airlines that I am drowning in miles that I
need to use up… Hmm. What is God trying to tell me?
The action was totally unconscious. I just got online and
purchased a ticket to Reno. The second I hit “purchase” I thought “shit, why
did I do this, I can’t go! I got too much to do!”
But I kept the ticket. Days went by and every day I would
moan to Brenda; I don’t know if I can go… what should I do? But something made
me go. Something stopped me from picking up the phone and asking Alaskan to
refund my miles.
What was it? Was I seeking relaxation? Was I trying to escape
responsibility? Was I mesmerized by unknown possibilities of an adventure? Was
I pragmatic and wanting to grow my business by growing my network in the yoga
I knew something was drawing me to go, but I had no idea what.
So I went, got on the plane not knowing anything at all,
confused by my decision to go and nervous to leave the business behind. But I
went, though it took a while to arrive with my soul. I was there in body
attending 3 classes a day, listening to concerts, wine tasting, bumping into
old friends…but it was an out of body experience. I was still here in Seattle
trying to run my business. I kept checking in with Brenda, she just laughed and
sent me a text saying; all is good would you just relax and have some fun!
Two days into the trip I arrived to Wanderlust. Woke up, sun is bright and luminous. I took a morning walk to the lakeshore, set and gazed into the glare of the water, so quiet tranquil. I felt myself carefree floating over the horizon. For the first time in a long time I felt light and stress free. I have no idea why, or how it happened but I was free. I felt free, but free from what? I guess free from my own thoughts, thoughts that imprisoned me in a cage of stress. The insecurities and trepidations about the future, my mind finally stopped trying to figure out how it will be, and I was totally focused on the joy of the moment.
And for two more days I immersed myself in the beauty of nature, the joy of yoga, and spontaneous love of the moment. I danced
my butt off at a concert where everyone was watching but nobody dancing. I ate marvelous food. I drank wine when I felt like it, yes sometimes even before a handstand workshop class. I laughed and laughed till
tears ran down my face. I felt so free.
As I boarded the plane back to Seattle I wondered; how can I hold onto this? Then my questions changed and I declared; “I will hold onto this” As we affirm, God confirms
I will hold onto this – this is my yoga off the mat
As I write these words, I bask in the beauty of my memories of Wanderlust. Then I gaze out and see a wonderful day, sun shining and smiling students come to class. It dawns on me I am living my dream life! Yes, life is uncertain; yes I chose to start a business in a down economy with all my savings. Yes I am not sure how all of this will work out, but for now, and just for now; I am living
my dream. I just needed a reminder that beauty is all around me all the time.
All I need to do is let myself see it.